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I want it known, here and now, that I do not have a "disorder". The so-called experts nowadays are saying that individuals born with intersex conditions have a Disorder of Sex Development "DSD". Like Lady Gaga says, I was born this way: as I was meant to be. I don't think I am disordered in any way.
This is the way I have been since birth and do not like using the DSD terminology! There, I said it. I am so tired of labels and do not like being clumped together under the umbrella of DSD. I prefer, if I have to explain anything, to say I was born intersex rather than say "Oh, I have a DISORDER OF SEX DEVELOPMENT." Fuck that! I am a HUMAN BEING. How about that?! My sex is fine! I can get down and sexual with the best of them. My sex is GOOD! How about that?!
I feel like I am evolving into someone that can think for themselves and am tired of having others tell me what I am. I don't want to have to explain anything. Like having to come out and disclose to others that I am different. That I am intersex. So fucking what?! I'm just like everyone else. Again, I am a HUMAN BEING! So how about the whole range of human spectrum being DISORDERED in some way or another? We are all fucked up in some way, right? Don't lie.
Saying I have a "disorder" is fucked up. I am not disordered. I am perfect! I am the image of my great creator. And the CREATOR DOES NOT MAKE MISTAKES! My sex and sexuality is not disordered by any means. I am passionate and loving and sexy and I am ALLLLLLLL WOMAN. So, you so-called experts, quit saying I have a disorder! Because I don't!
Saying I have a disorder breeds shame! For shame! I was born with Complete Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome, meaning I am a genetic male but developed physically as a female because at fetal development my body rejected the male androgens I was producing so I became a female by default. I had my undescended testes removed at 18 years of age and do not have any reproductive organs. Other than that little tidbit I have the proper bits to do what everyone else is capable of doing, disordered or otherwise.
My thoughts for tonight.
Note: To learn more about me and my intersex experiences please review my blog posts, "The Secret Inside Me" and "The Secret Inside Me, Part 2: Feeling Shame" (previous blog posts)